It's Not for You to Decide

Let go of the outcome. When you entered Sychem, you had no time to get attached to the outcome; you only had time to learn how to swim. When you're drowning, the destination doesn't matter—finding air to breathe is all that counts.

Pokhara, Nepal

I realize now that the same mindset and level of detachment I had at Sychem should apply to what I create within the Ever Evolving sphere. As I just read in The Creative Act by Rick Rubin, the receiver of my creations will experience them through their own lens, not mine, meaning their interpretation of my art will differ from my own. It's pointless to worry about how others will receive the letters, words, sentences, and paragraphs I create. Release control—it's not yours to keep.

This detachment has allowed me to share with more ease. Separating my emotional attachment from how my work is received doesn’t strip the emotions from the work itself. It simply frees me to share without the burden of concern over others' reactions because there will always be those who love it, those who hate it, and those who are indifferent. The need I once had—and sometimes still feel—to be loved by all has, at times, held me back from fully sharing my inner world with the outer world.

EVERYTHING

I have only one weapon, and that is my pen. Use it. Don't waste its unlimited ammunition. It is forever. All that is etched into this piece of paper is etched into the Universe. It is never for nothing. It is all for something. Do not worry about the naysayers inside and outside. Your heart's expression, its mark on this land, in this time, is not a nice-to-have; it is EVERYTHING.

From the Streets of Valencia, Spain

You are the beauty we are all waiting for; it will be received by the seen and unseen. Don't be discouraged, and don't look for outcomes. Each moment that your heart expresses upon us is a push in the right direction.

They speak about the third eye, the home of our intuition and critical to our awakening, but there is another eye that lives within your chest, planted upon your heart. Centuries of seduction have kept her sleeping, but their tears are our tears. Their sacrifice is our awakening. Don't let it be for nothing because it is everything. Don't you see the gift they are gifting us? Will you let their screams awaken you from the seduction of he?

Don't let it be for nothing because it is EVERYTHING.

From the streets of Valencia, Spain

Magnetic love

The pursuit of love remains the most challenging part of my life. Why can't I attain it? Why can't I find it? I'm working so hard toward it. Am I not doing enough? Am I a coward? Am I not open enough? Do I need to be braver? Do I need to get out more? I don't know where to go, and although I can go out and travel on my own, I am tired.

I was ecstatic to find her, to be open enough to receive her, but she wasn’t ready. She doesn't see the possibilities I see. She doesn't understand why she feels what she does. It makes me sad, but I can't stop. I can't give up hope. I can't close my heart. It needs to stay open more than ever. I am close. I feel her. She is near.

The question "What the fuck?" continues to enter my mind. It sits alongside hope in the passenger seat. Fortunately, hope is driving. It's frustrating, but what’s a man to do? I am myself, and I have so much love to give. I have done and continue to do the deep work. I feel that the deeper I go, the more challenging it is to find her at times. She is not your average woman. She is powerful, beautiful, and evolved beyond my imagination.

What should I do? Where should I go? Is there something I've done wrong? These are questions that sit behind hope. They roll around in the back seat. Thankfully, hope is driving.

I have a new theory I will test. I have so much love to give that I need to distribute it by channeling it into more creative projects. I need to put my love into dance again. I need to sing. I need to listen to music. I need to paint and continue to pour my heart out in my writing. I need to love the amazing family and friends in my life today. I need to share my heart, my love, because it is too much for one human to handle.

It's time for more laughter, more dance, and more play in my life. I love the dance between the internal and external as I cleanse the energy lines from the root to the top of the tree. I am learning to live with an open, broken heart. I have so much love to share with her when she arrives. I need to maintain the dance between persistence and patience, between bravery and humility. I need to settle for nothing less than that soulful connection.

We are nervous, we are scared, and most skate on the surface. But if we give deep discovery the time it requires, if we dig a little deeper and explore the seven lines of energetic points first within ourselves, then with the person across from us, we are bound to find that love. It feels like two of the most powerful magnets pulling together. It takes an abundance of energy to split apart. Deep down you know. When you find it, life will reach heights that are unimaginable from where you currently stand.

This is not the time to settle for anything less. This is the time to ask and stay open for what cannot be articulated with words. It can only be felt through emotions that reside within the soul and are communicated through the heart. The mind has no say. Logic is irrelevant. Keep rational thoughts out of this. There are no algorithms to measure this connection, this love.

Many of us are so closed, like robots walking aimlessly, attempting to connect through lists generated within our minds—either on our own or based on the expectations of our tribe and society. Put away those formulas; they are useless if real love, real connection, and genuine happiness are what you seek. Open your heart. Living with a closed heart is the same as being six feet under.

What's the point? Open up, baby. Let's play, let's dance, let's love.

I imagine her in my life. I imagine walking behind her and wrapping my arms around her waist, moving her hair to one side, kissing her cheek, and then softly kissing her neck. I turn her around, look into her eyes as our bodies exchange energies, spirits lifting each other. I softly kiss her beautiful lips. I am in search of love that cannot be articulated with words.

Woodbine beach. I see that which I yearn.

Creative Connections

I spent the first part of my day in Tate Modern. I learned something interesting about Museums over the last few years. Walk through it and scan the work; you will have an energetic draw of those works that align with your inner being. Don't try to analyze and make sense of the works. If out of 200 pieces of art - sculptures, paintings, photography, etc, only two or three pull you in, that's ok. It's how it should be. Spend time with those pieces that draw you in, and be there with them because they will open up treasures within yourself. It will inspire you to be more significant and to do greater. If you get this, it will be a trip well worth it. You don't have to see or connect with everything. You don't have to understand, make sense or take pictures of every piece.

I love it when a piece pulls me in and triggers an emotional response from deep within, sometimes even making my hair stand. Others inspire me to do something to evolve, to draw to paint, and other pieces generate new ideas from the heart and soul.

Rick Rubin discusses this in his interview with Tim Ferriss. He discusses the importance of exploring other forms of artistic expression to bring out our inner wisdom and creativity. We should be inspired to be greater from the place of the heart and soul. It's where real greatness is generated. 

It could be a song, a lyric, a sentence, a poem, a painting, or a film. The forms of potential inspiration are endless. If you don't know where to start, start anywhere. Don't think about it. Go to the theatre, watch a movie, pop into a museum or check out a concert. 

We are all creative beings, but most of us have had our creativity suppressed and told to be practical instead. What is the logical and rational thing to do? Logic and rationality have their place, but they need to take a back seat to creativity right now. We have suppressed who we are so deeply that the only way to unleash it, take the veil off, and unblock it is through external inspiration. Make it your purpose to find your creative connection. It will lead you to finding yourself, being yourself, and loving yourself more than you could ever imagine, inevitably resulting in loving others more deeply. 

You will eventually find a creative connection so deep that it is like gravity is pulling your creative being out from the dark corners, from under the rocks that have fallen on top of it through the avalanches of societal expectations of logic and rationality. You will have no choice but to express your deepest inner self and share your creativity in forms that align with who you truly are. 

Make those creative connections. It's time now. We need you to come out from under the rubble and shine your creative light.